2006...

Today seems more like the last day of the year. Only because it is the last day of the month/year for work and we are trying to close every deal known to man today. So since I am feeling a tad bit bored I am going to write. It has been a while so this could be long. Christmas is over for 2006, in 3 more days it will be Jan. 2007, and in 4 more days I will be 31. I can honestly say I am looking forward to 2007. Not that I am happy 2006 is over just looking forward to 2007.

2006…..My first big leap was turning 30 on Jan. 2nd what a way to start off the year. That was hard on me to begin with but I can’t change my age even if I wanted to. This year I found an old friend that I have been trying to get in touch with for almost 7 or 8 years. Thanks to myspace she found me, we now talk all the time, and it seems we picked up right where we left off, kind of like we never lost touch.

In April Lindsey and I went down to San Diego which was very fun. That was probably my vacation for the year and a very fun one at that. We had a great time and were ready to go back the moment we walked off the plane. Took Lindsey to Tijuana where we swore if we put her on the outside of the side walk she was going to get taken. Don’t know what it is but the hot blonde girls sell for a lot. ;-) I love you and I would never let them take you I promise.

We spent a lot of time with both of our families this year. We both have the greatest families anyone could ask for. I thank god all the time for the amazing relationships we each have with our families and with each others. We are so lucky we can go on family trips and love every moment of it.

In Oct. our friends Erynn and Morgan came to town for her Mom’s 50th birthday. That weekend I learned the value of a friendship and what it is to not have it with you. I realized how easily it is to take friends for granted and think they are always going to be there no matter what you do. When honestly, that just isn’t the case. You need to respect your friends like they respect you and treat them how you would want to be treated. I have had my heart broke by a few friends this year and hopefully they will someday realize what they are missing. If they don’t I wish them all the happiness. I will come out of this year with some of the best friends I have ever had and I love each and every one of them so very much.

In September Chris and I celebrated our 4 year anniversary. We have really grown a lot this year. This year has been a rough year but I think it has by far brought us so much closer together. Because at the end of the day, all that matters is each other. I love you so very much Christopher.

A few of my favorites for 2006

Song: My Love – Justine Timberlake (I admit it nobody can do it like JT)
Favorite Night Out: Going to 21st with the Girls. (I miss you Pretty Princess)
Getting Pedicures with my Mom
Going to Fuji’s with Chris
Timothy Lake
Chief Timothy
San Diego with Lindsey
Dinners on Sunday at my Parents house
Verbort Dinner with my Dad
My 30th birthday party
Going to Kelle and Joe’s on a Fri or Saturday night and staying

Ok I just realized it is 3:45, I have wrote a book, and need to go home to nap for one last 30th birthday of the year. Have a safe and Happy New Year!!! Love You All!!!

A Very Special Person to Me

A very special friend of mine is going through some major unforseen issues right now. I don’t want to say who this person is but I would like you to pray for this person, their family and their health. I want this special person to know that words can’t describe how I feel about them. If you are reading this I love you so very much. Know I will be praying for you. Remember Chris and I are always here for you and love you so very much.

Fall, Thanksgiving, Winter, Christmas, New Years.....

I think this has to be my favorite time of year. Especially right now when we have beautiful fall weather with leaves every where you go and blue skies at the same time. I even have said before how much I LOVE the rain and wind storms. I can't get enough of them.

It leads into Thanksgiving, to winter then before you know it Christmas has jumped up and grabbed you. If you think about it Christmas is exactly 38 days away. I look at it this way sometimes; I only have 2 more pay checks before Christmas is here. That just seems out of control. It is so amazing how every year after Christmas everyone has a plan that they will start shopping earlier and be prepared so they aren't doing everything 2 days before Christmas. Guess what as much as I try it still happens that way and I am sure it will this year too. I don’t really know what to expect this year though. I usually have Christmas planned out in my head but really this year we have so much going on I am looking forward to it but I am not. I’m looking forward to family, friends, cookies, kids playing, music, SNOW (hoping), Christmas tree smell, warm cozy fires and all the joys that come with Christmas. But I just wish that we would have enough money to do everything we want to do for Christmas or everything I want to do. I am such a giving person and it is so hard for me to not be able to buy presents for people. It just hurts me inside. I just have to pray that I can be ok with it and know that my family knows what we are going through and understand. I just have to pray I can accept it. And know we aren’t the only ones.

Thanksgiving, that is another story; it is my favorite day of the year. A day to eat, be thankful, and enjoy each other without expectations. I absolutely LOVE this day. I used to hate it when I was little because I didn’t like choosing where I was going to go. My Mom’s or My Dad’s? Now it is easy I love it either way no matter where we go. The only thing I don’t like is when I don’t get Turkey and all the yummies that come with Thanksgiving. I had one year without and I WON’T do that again I just get sad and cranky. So this year I am so excited for all the football, family, and all day of eating!!!

So something has been bothering me. On October 13th Bono introduced and launched what is known as (PRODUCT)RED.

(RED) was created by Bono and Bobby Shriver, Chairman of DATA to raise awareness and money for The Global Fund by teaming up with the world's most iconic brands to produce (PRODUCT)RED branded products. A percentage of each (PRODUCT)RED product sold is given to The Global Fund. The money helps women and children affected by HIV/AIDS in Africa.
What's the meaning of the parentheses or brackets? Well, we call them "the embrace." Each company that becomes (RED) places its logo in this embrace and is then elevated to the power of red. Thus the name -- (PRODUCT)RED.
You, the consumer, can take your purchase to the power of (RED) simply by upgrading your choice. Thus the proposition: (YOU)RED. Be embraced, take your own fine self to the power of (RED). What better way to become a good-looking Samaritan?!

To what has been bothering me. Why is it that when someone famous, like Bono or a large corporation does something good, people automatically assume that is a “marketing ploy”? Why can’t someone do something for a good cause and there not be an “underling” reason? Maybe I am naive and think the best of everyone but I really believe in (PRODUCT)RED. Maybe it is because I work at GAP and have read so much about since August. Maybe I want to see the best in people. But really until you know everything must you think the worst?

TGIW

I don't have much today but I am so happy today is already Wednesday. I really could use a good week. I just want to crawl back in bed and sleep for about 3 months that is how tired I am. Can I do that?

Sometimes I think I really enjoy the weather because if it was nice and sunny outside I would want to be out playing. I also think sometimes it brings me down when it is like this too. You know what would be great and I hope we get one this year is a nice fun snow storm. I know a lot of people don't like them but I honestly love them. I love being stuck and home not able to go to work and sit inside cuddled up doing nothing all day. It can be on a weekend it just isn't as much fun cause you don't get to miss work ask much. Remember the days in the winter when you were in school and got up each morning to see if you did or didn't have school hoping it dumped snow all night? Where did those days go?

Random Sunday Stuff

Ok so I did something stupid and shouldn't have. Never let Taneha drink a few glasses of wine and send her to a party where someone is selling something. I ended up buying a pair of 7 Jeans that I should never have bought. Now that I am sober and in my right mind I realize I am a dork and need to return them.

Monday my Step Father Jack is having major surgery to remove a tumor from his right side. I am sure he is pretty nervous but if you know my Father he will never let anyone know that. He is the most humble man I know and I love him for that. If you think about it please pray for him and my Mom. I know my Mom will be under a lot of stress and won't show it because she doesn't want people to know she is scared either. Please pray for both of them and the rest of my family.

Now the random stuff........

What is the right way to put the toilet paper on the roll?
Why do we get stupid emails about weight loss and viagra when we have spam blockers?
Where is my magic wand to make my house clean?
Who will win the Bears Giants game? Better be the Bears but we will see!!!!

My Daily Random Thoughts

As I was driving at lunch today I was thinking of all these things in my head so I thought why not blog them. Some of them quite pointless other a little interesting at least I talked to myself in the car about them for a while. I laugh by myself too you should try it sometime it is GREAT. ;-)

Rain, is it ever going to stop? I honestly don't mind the rain I like the sound of it and it makes everything smell so yummy. I mean come on, "I love the smell of water." The question though how much rain can you actually take though. Know I think hasn't gone to bathroom in like 2 days. It was poring down rain this morning and I made her stay out in the rain for 15 minutes. I felt so bad for her, I am a sucker. The gutters on the house haven't been completely cleaned out and the rear ones have created a waterfall over the side of the gutter. When is Chris going to be home so he can fix it? This seems to be a small problem compared to all the families and people in Oregon and Washington that have flooded houses. I can't even imagine how horrible it would be to have to deal with something so much bigger than just a small waterfall over my gutter. Tonight I am very thankful that the rain has stopped for at least a few hours.

What am I still doing at my job? I complain about it so much but don't probably do all the things I could to change it. I have applied for a few other jobs but haven't ever heard back. There are a few things I do like about my job but really what keeps me there? Is is because it is stable? Is is because I am not crazy about change? Is it because I absolutely love the people I work with. Ok I do like about 4 of the people I work with ok maybe 6. Beyond that I think I might go crazy half the day. For now I will just keep looking and praying something will come up.

For now I will spare you all the other boring details of the thoughts I think of through out the day. Trust me these are normal compared to the other ones I have......

Why when someone calls a company for Tech Support on something they own they all the sudden act like their brain has left their head?

Do people really think if they build a house on a cliff and it rains like 70% of the year their house will actually stay there?

I could go on and one but I will leave it for another day.

Halloween Party

On October 28th we had a Halloween party up at Chris' parents house in the barn. I wanted to wait till I had the pictures from Joe and Kelle's camera to post pictures but I have been bugged long enough. ;) I will add the pictures when I get them. They have some that give people an idea of what the barn actually looked like which was AMAZING. I can't wait to do it again we had so much fun from all the set up to the food, decorating, chasing cows in other pastures, dancing, hanging out with friends, bon fire, pass the apple and pure fun. We can't wait to do it again.

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I did it, I did it...

I am so happy I fixed my blog to fit in everything I want and love as well as all my slideshows. It looks pretty much how I want it to and i will leave it for a while. Till something new pops up at me and I like that more. Till then enjoy!!!

Changed it again.....

Ok I am sure nobody saw the last template I picked out buy I like this one so much better. One day I am going to figure out how to do my own so I won't have to search for ones on the internet that I don't like as much as one I create. I think that is what I like about myspace really. I can and have figured out how to change my page on my own. I can't seem to figure out how to change my background and template with blogger. :( Wow has it been a rough week but it is over.
Chris has been really sick on top of trying to finally finish his Real Estate classes so he can pass and move on. He has to do it by Wednesday too or he has a few issues which we will talk about later. Thank goodness he will be helping Jack on Monday and Tuesday cause lord knows we need the money.
So it is 4:58 and I am out of here (work) till Monday. I will have to post pictures of the Halloween party we are having on Saturday. Maybe I will decide to change my template again. ;-)

Bear With Me!

First I want to start by stating that I had to look up is it "Bear with me" or "Bare with me?" Just so you know, "Bear with me,” the standard expression, is a request for forbearance or patience. “Bare with me” would be an invitation to undress. “Bare” has an adjectival form: “The pioneers stripped the forest bare.” Just FYI incase some of you are wondering. ;)
I have been trying to find new templates for my blog and found this one which I love since it fits everything I have been doing lately. I do love quilting and sewing. The only problem is the margins are smaller and when I put in my pictures or slide shows perticularly my margins tweek out and moves my profile down to the bottom of the page. Taneha doesn't like that. So in the mean time I took them out so I could figure out how to fix it. I know I am a nut. :)

We don't realize what we have until we don't have them!!!

Man I didn't realize it had been so long since I had sat down and wrote a blog. Chris and I have had a lot going on in our lives the last month or so. I have been really busy on top of trying to get things worked out in our lives that have consumed everything we do and think about. I totally put a lot of my free time into quilting and sewing and made one of the cutest quilts for Xavier. It is so cute I should have taken pictures of it to post. Anyway things are starting to settle down but will still be crazy for a few weeks.
To the subject of my blog, "we don't realize what we have until we don't!!!" I want to start by saying I just had one of the BEST weekends I have had in a long time. Thanks to 3 very special friends Prettiest Princess, Krissy Bugger and Mook. Prettiest Princess and her husband moved to Arizona after they got married. I don't get to see any of them very often even though Krissy Bugger and Jamie live here. Our lives are so busy it is hard sometimes. This weekend I spent a lot of time with them laughing and crying. I realized how much I miss the 3 of you and how much I love you. Erynn I miss you so much and can't wait for you to come home.
We have great friends and family it is times like this weekend that remind us how precious our fiends and family actually are. You don't realize how much they mean to you and help you through so much till they aren't right down the street to just have over for dinner or to have them there to hang out with to make you laugh and cry.
To my friends, if it seems I have closed you out at all I am truly sorry. I have never meant to cut you off I love you so very much and you are each so very special in your own way.
Prettiest Princess, Krissy Bugger and Mook, thank you for the amazing weekend I got to spend with you. You, without knowing it have taught me a lot and made me realize a lot in 2 days. I miss you so much and love you so much more!!! Is it February already?

Kona Splash For Cash Jump

Chris and Kona have recently found a new love, Dock Jumping! Chris entered Kona in her first jump in June for fun. She jumped about 5.4 for her first time. Chris then entered her at the Washington County Fair, she hadn't jumped in a while so she didn't do as well as she did the first time but the 2 of them had so much fun. When we went camping a month ago there was a dock there and they practiced a bit. She was doing so go. They went to an open house with a bunch of dogs a few weeks ago and Kona jumped her PB (persona best) of 10ft. This last weekend we drove up to Woodland, WA for a charity event to raise money for animals that need assistance after hurricane Katrina. Kona ended up jumping a new PB of 13ft. Chris and Kona love this sport so much, it is so fun to watch them both get so excited. All the expert trainers say with good practice and time Kona will be a 20ft. jumper in no time. Here are some fun pictures from Sundays jumps. Zach even got to participate in the fun. Watch out for a new up and coming star next year. Kona and Chris are teaching Truck and Thomas all their tricks.

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I am so addicted

I am so addicted to constantly redoing my blog colors to find something I like. I found a template and figured out how to change the colors but still haven't figured out how to change the layout. I know I am a dork but it is fun when you finally figure it out. Ok that is all for now. :)

Prayer Request Update

So I wanted to give everyone a quick update on how Tyler is doing. Friday the 1st Reina sent us a text message saying they had moved him in to the Rehab Unit with the School Aged kids. Tyler will currently be going through Physical Therapy 5 days a week 2-3 times a day.

Chris and I met up with 2 of our other friends and went over to their house that night cause they came home for the evening. They told us as soon as they moved him he seemed back to his normal self smiling and laughing. Reina and Ty seemed very happy and relieved on Friday night. Chris and I went up to the hospital with a few other friends to visit Tyler on Wednesday, he had made major leaps since we had seen him the week before. He was moving his little arms up and down and when Reina sat him in his crib he sat up a little bit for us. He was so full of smiles and giggles. Uncle Chris even made him laugh and smile like he usually does. This made Uncle Chris VERY happy since it was his birthday. Please keep praying for Tyler, his recover, as well as Ty and Reina.

We still have the blue bracelets available for $7 each if people would still like to buy them to raise money for his medical expenses. Let me know if you would like one or would like to donate money.

Pickles

I absolutely love pickles. I have since the day I was born. 4 years ago a few weeks before I got married my Aunt Cathy gave Lindsey and I my Grandma's pickle recipe. Since then I have been making pickles. To me this has to be the best recipe in the world and the hotter the better. Some say I should just sell them year round but man I would have to make gallons of pickles. So come Friday I will be picking up 3 bags of pickling cucumbers to make into pickles on Saturday. I am so excited and in 6 weeks I will be cracking open a jar of new pickles. Oh I can't wait.

Simple Prayer Request

I myself don't normally pass these along because they are usually not true. This is the son of mine and Chris' best friends. His Aunt Katy posted this today and I would like to pass it on to as many people as possible. They may get to bring him home in a few weeks but like Katy said his progress has been slow and minimal with little movement in his legs.

If you would like to buy a band please let myself or Katy know. You can email me here or at tanehajo@hotmail.com.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post.

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Okay so I never post these bulletin or blog things much! Because honestly I think they are a wee... bit corny! But when you need to get something out to a lot of people I figured this was the best way to do it!

Some of you may already be aware of the tragedy that has recently occurred in mine and Troy's family, yet others of you may not be, and we are in need of as many extra prayers that we can possibly get.

About two and a half to three weeks ago our 9-month-old nephew was emitted to the hospital with a serious spinal cord disease, and has no movement from his neck down, with very limited movement in his legs. There is a possibility that he will recover. Yet with blood dialysis and physical therapy lately, there has been little progress.

I am asking for all of you to include him and his family in your prayers in the days to come. I am hoping that with the support of all of you he will be given the strength to overcome this battle and be given a chance that he greatly deserves.

This message is in no way meant to ask for anything other than a simple prayer. But for those of you that are interested, I have created "get well soon" awareness bands with his name on them. They are 7 bucks and all the money earned will be given to him for medical expenses. Contact me via email tkjenks05@yahoo.com if you would like one!

There has also been a donation fund set up at the Key Bank, on Farmington Road, for any of you that wish to donate.

Please Pray!!

Thanks! Katy Jenkins

Family

Chris and I spent this last weekend over on the Snake River on the boarder of Washington and Idaho with his family. I can't beging to explain how much fun we had. I am so blessed to have in-laws like I do. I know sometimes we take advantage of the fact that we get a long with each others families so well.

We spent an entire weekend laying in the sun playing in the water and relaxing. Here are some of the goofy pictures we took while we were gone. I hope you enjoy them I know we did.

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What is important?

I have always been one that has either lived to constantly please people or doing things for them. Some people in my life would say at one time I was a door mat for my friends and relatives. Through the years God has taught me 1 how to stand up for myself and 2 not always do what everyone else wants but what Taneha wants. Imagine that, it is possible. So recently I have taken on the approach that I can't do everything just to please everyone. Well, this doesn't seem to fit well into everyone's way of thinking. Some still think that I should do everything for them and not worry about myself sometimes or other important issue going on.

Last Monday the 7th our best friends 9 month old baby was put in the hospital. They have always done a lot for Chris and I. So in turn when they need us we would like to be there for them. They are a huge part of our life. This ended up causing a little bit of a problem for other people that didn't understand because I put everything else on the back burner so if they needed me or us we were there for them. If Reina wanted me to go and sit with her for a few hours and drink wine I would. If she wanted me to watch Big Brother with her I would. I just don't see how some people can get so irritated if you don't do one small thing for them. Maybe I am being selfish. Maybe I should have thought about how my actions were going to affect someone else cause honestly what I was suppose to do was taken care of by someone else and in my mind I had something that took priority over anything right at that moment to do.

It is all over now but I just don't get how you give and give to certain people in your life but it still isn't enough. Why is it when you can't do something they are hurt and mad at you. I have come to the conclusion if they are mad at you for something so small they will get over it and I can't spend my day trying to fix it. Instead I am sitting here typing a blog about it. How funny is that?

Shoes

I am a bit frustrated and irritated by my shoes. I am really and always have been a shoe freak. I love shoes to say the least. I used to be really bad but now that I have responsibilities I try not to buy every pair of black shoes I see and love. My philosophy if it is a black shoe, it is cute and I don't have it I need it. You can never have too many pairs of black or brown shoes. A few weeks ago I was walking in the house and ruined a new pair of heels I had just bought. The heel slipped in a crack in the side walk and ripped up the leather on the back. UGGGGG so I was limited on my shoes cause I hadn't bought any in a while and didn't have many summer work heels, OK I had none now. So Saturday I found a cute cheap pair at Kohl’s to get me by for a while till I found ones I love. I wore them yesterday for the, yeah they irritated me a bit but they were new I expected it. I decided to wear them again today to work. As I was going to pick up my lunch I saw something, what looked to be mud on the end of my left one. NOPE my cute shoes now had a stupid rip in the leather. OMG are freaking kidding me. I am not having any luck. NOW I have 2 new pairs of shoes that have to be taken to the shoe repair man in Fred Meyer. I can't even begin to explain how irritating this is. I now this sound so trivial but it is really a bit irritating. I want to take both pair of shoes and throw them against the wall or through a window. Right about now I wish I could one just go barefoot every where or just wear flips the rest of my life and look cute. But I am sure some how they will rip or scuff 2 days after I get them.

I am so bored

I am at work right now and I am so bored out of my mind. I could seriously fall asleep. I am so happy it is Friday. I usually get here between 7 and 7:30 then leave around 3 or 3:30. Well today wasn't like that at all. Someone has tp be here till 5 and today it is me. I have about 13 minutes left but it has turned out to be the slowest 13 minutes ever. Tonight we aren't going to do much but I am so excited that we are going to have a fun night watching movies. I have to say I am so very lucky that I have a wonderful brother and sister-in-law. The 4 of us have so much fun together and do absolutely everything together. Lindsey is such a huge part of my life and I don't know what I would do without her. She has turned out to be my best friend and it makes me cry when I think about how wonderful she is as a sister and a best friend. She is so supportive and I hope I am the same to her as she is to me. I know the only person that will probably ever read this is Tara but oh well. Side note I love you too and thank you as well for being the best friend. There has been so much going on in both mine and Chris' lives lately and I realize that everyone has their own separate issues but really Lindsey and Tara have been so wonderful. I hope I am as good of a friend and sister to them as they are to me. Ok now I am just rambling.

Please Please let me go home!!! Now I have 6 minutes and it is taking forever. Can I also say I am a bit irritated that myspace is not working. I know a lot of people don't like it but it is fun to see what other people are up to and leave them long notes. :-) Tara you really need one when you have the baby.

4 minutes and counting I get to go home. I will have to sit in my hot car for about 30 minutes but it is totally worth it because I won't be sitting here any more. My computer clock says 4:59 but the clock on my phone which is right now says 4:57. Ok honestly I should spare anyone that is reading this. I will go home now with this......I love you Tara and Lindsey and I hope I can support the 2 of you as you do me. Loves...Hugs.....Kisses

Somethings I can accept but this one I don't think I can....

Ok so I got to the GAP last night and I was looking at all the new products we got for our Fall 1 collection. So they have come out with some interesting things since I have been working there. I freaked out when they sent us leggings to go under skirts. Lauren my pretty you do look hot in them I must say, but there are some ladies out there that think they can wear them with a big shirt over them. THIS IS NOT OK!! Back to last night Jason decided to show me the new "Limited Edition" Jeans we got. THEY FREAKING HAVE ZIPPERS ON THE LEGS. Ok we are not in the 80's and we are not GUESS. I was in such shock by this I had to walk around and show EVERYONE. Why why would you think that women will want to buy these. They went out of style like what almost 28 years ago they went out of style because they needed to. GAP don't bring them back we let them go for a reason. Oh yeah and the come in 2 different colors, black and denim. Here is a picture of them. I know you all want them.

I don't know....

I have some of the best friends and I love them so very much. I don't know why but lately my closest friends seem to be the ones that are not so close or really there. I feel very distant from them and it makes me sad. They make little comments that I don't quite understand as to why they would say them. Or just happen to leave you out of things and don't even think about it. I feel really sad right now but maybe it is just a mood because I have been working so much and I am so tired. Chris yells at me because I take things so personally and I shouldn't. Maybe I am taking things too personal and should just realize that. Ok I am done feeling sorry for myself. Oh yeah Tara if you read this I LOVE YOU so very much and am very thankful for our friendship.

We are getting there......

So right before I left for Orlando I made a Doctors Appointment with a new Doctor Jenn recommended. My appointment was on the 12th at 3pm. I was SO nervous yet so excited at the same time. I have been scared since my surgery in 1999. Which actually seemed like it was yesterday and really it was already 7 years ago which seemed so crazy to me. Honestly it truly seems like yesterday. I sat in the waiting room reading an article in Redbook about Harry Conick Jr. The door opened and the nurse peaked her head through the door and was like, "Mrsssss. Tes..." "Teshera" I finished for her. After I did all the new patient questions with the nurse I sat on the edge waiting for the doctor to come in. She walked in and said, "Taneha?" She said it right it was the funniest thing. Ok to most people that may not seem funny to you but for someone to get my name right on the first guess, that is like 1 in 5000. I think that is how many times on the first guess people have actually said my name right. So after talking with her and giving her my medical background she seemed very positive. First we have to try a month or 2 of ovulations test then. In the mean time she wants Chris to go get tested first since eliminating him is easy to do in this case. So I called Chris and said, "Hey honey your first. You get to visit the cup." Then after all that if we aren't pregnant we get to start all the fertility testing for me. First she wanted me to check with my insurance to see if they covered any of it. Off I was to find out what I could. Here is where we are now. Come to find out insurance doesn't cover a thing and I will have to pay for all of it out of our pocket. Funny thing most insurances with cover abortions but do you think they will cover fertility testing NOPE!!! I am so upset but will work with it. Chris and I have started saving and hopefully by the end of the year we will have some answers. So say your prayers for us. We are both really excited. My doctor seemed so positive that I could be any more excited. I just have to over come the hurdle of getting the testing done if need be. We are on our way and getting there.

I Swear I might hurt him......

So most of you know that Chris doesn't have a job and has been working on a few things. That is fine I am willing to be supportive and help out as long as he has a goal and looking forward. BUT OMG I am about to hurt him. He has pretty much done NOTHING the last 2 days and I am going to scream. Why is it that I am working 2 jobs but he can go to the rive one day then go play golf the next day. I am so mad that I can't even start to explain how mad I am. I am about to cry I am so raging pissed at him. When is it my turn to actually enjoy a day off or not have to worry about going to work or how tired I am because I couldn't sleep the night before, laying there worring about money. I get so frustrated cause I can't buy anything to make me feel better like I normally would cause we have no extra money. ARRRG I am just fuming frustrated right now. Ok I think I am done for now.

First Blog

Ok, so this is my first official blog. I have done them before on myspace but deleted most of them because they were just stupid forwards. On my way to work either at PLUS or GAP I am always thinking, "man I need to blog more" just because I always have these random thoughts in my head. So I will give it a try for now. I am married to Christopher. We have been married for almost 4 years now. We have a Chocolate Lab named Kona and 3 cats Jack, Jill, and Shiver. Chris just started a new job that he loves. I have been working for PLUS now almost 5 years and started working part time at the GAP in the evening and weekends for extra money. I actually like it a lot because I don't have to think or worry about anything. Besides the fact that I am almos 8-11 years older than most of the ids there it is GREAT. I love my GAP friends. Chris and I have been trying off and on to get pregnant for probably 2 years now. We have been unsecesful but we know it will happen when the time is right. I have my good and bad days when it comes to being pregnant. I am sure I will talk about it more in another blog. Now that my offical first blog is out of the way I feel so much better. :)