Bridge to Brews 2012

I've done a couple races now and all have been no more then a 5k.  Since I am training to run a 1/2 marathon and can run 4 miles fairly easy.  Meaning without falling over or puking.  I figured 2 more miles can't be anything after 4.  I was nervous but knew in the end I could finish.  I went in with no goals.  I didn't want to walk but that first hill, wow!!! You have to get up to the Freemont bridge some how.  All in all it was a great first 10k.  I can't wait to do it again next year. 
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Our fist official 10k.

The one who encourages me every run good or bad.

Lets get this started.

Bridge #1

Bridge #2

Crossing the finish line!

My Girls! Thank you!

Rough Run

I know every run can't be perfect the way I want it. I do know I didn't eat good or drink enough water. Lesson learned.

Love Running

15 Minutes

I needed something quick last night so I decided to refer to Pinterest and see if there was a quick leg or ab workout.  I remembered this one so I decided to give it a go.  WOW.... My abs feel it this morning.  It was hard but worth it.  If you ever need a quick (more like 25-30 miute) workout try it. 



Giving Up

After my run on Saturday I was REALLY discouraged.  I kind of felt like I wanted to give up.  Forget the 10k and the half marathon.  I am just not cut out for this running crap.  As much as I love it some days are just rough.  Saturday I tried to convince myself I could make it.  My knee started hurting, the rain, the tiredness, the constant puddles and the soaking wet feet just got to me.  I just wanted to give up.  I would walk a little and then run.  I made it and was glad I got out there at 6:30am.  I still wasn't convinced I could actually do a 10k in 2 weeks.  The voices were starting to get me down.   

As much as I knew I needed to run last night I just wasn't feeling it. Knowing I have a 10k right around the corner I needed to at least get a few 3-5 milers in this week.  I can't give up now this is what I have been wanting.  After a few encouraging words I pulled up my big girl pants and hit the road.  I was almost done and I told myself to go just a little bit further.  I ended up running about 2.6 miles at a 10:30 pace.  Usually I am between 11:00 - 11:30.  It was a great feeling and I am glad I did it.  Now if I can take that run just a little longer on Wednesday. 

I know I can do this.  Slow and stead, I will make it. 

Quality Time...

Just what I needed today.

April, Realy?!?!

I can't believe we have already finished 25% of 2012.  I look back thinking where the heck did February and March go. 

February started off a little crazy to say the least.  To put it nicely I don't have the best relationship with my biological Dad.  Most people honestly think when I refer to my Dad I am talking about Jack.  Which usually I am.  This time I am talking about my Dad, Mike.  I hadn't seen him in over a year on Christmas Eve.  We tried getting together with him but every time we set a date he wasn't feeling so good. 

The morning of February 9th I got a call on my work phone from my Dad's boss.  He had taken him to the ER because he was having stomach pain and couldn't eat.  After talking to Thomas we decided to head up to the hospital.  Several tests, waiting, waiting and more waiting they discovered he had a blockage in his colon.  Without saying it was cancer they pretty much told us he had colon cancer.  By that afternoon he had his first surgery to give him an NG tube to drain his stomach.  2 surgery's, 1 colostomy, lots of yelling, some crying and 12 days in the hospital he was finally able to go home.

Now after not seeing him for over a year this was a lot to take in.  What do we do now?  Right before he left the hospital we found out that he had Stage 2 colon cancer and would probably only be going through chemo for about 6 months.  Still it was freaky for him since 1, he has no health insurance and 2, he didn't know what to expect.  For me I am was a bit overwhelmed at what to do and what was going on. 

Chemo started on March 28th a little over 6 weeks after his first surgery.  It is going to be a long 6 months but as I keep telling him we will get through it and everything will be over by November. 

I am more emotional of all the unknown and how I went from not having this relationship with my Dad, 1 night not know if he was going to make, to spending 2-3 days a week helping him.  It was kind of overwhelming.  Thursday when I talked to Thomas I told him I needed a break for a few days.  As of today I haven't talked to him since Friday.  I guess I should call and check in.  :)

I have had a fun girls weekend at the beginning of February that came just at the right time.  It was great to get away and have a distraction.  I would post a few pictures but I don't have any. ;-)

Another major event happened at the beginning of March that I just can't find the words to explain the feeling.  Am I ok?  Yeah, I'm ok. Do I feel like I have closer? Little bit. Honestly the feeling is one that can't be explained.  It's a feeling of failure and sadness that can't be described.  Knowing though you did everything, but feeling like you should have done more.  Everything you did still wasn't enough.  Knowing it was what you wanted. Things are ok. They will be and are amazing.  It is just different. 

Now I am looking forward to the next 75% of 2012.